It was a decent day at work; they finally had us back on the phones, albeit only for a couple of hours, and I think that the calls that I took went well. Plus, since it’s been customer service week, we got our last piece of swag–thankfully NON-Corporate-branded, just like the headphones–a 1 gb microSD card. PRACTICAL and kinda nifty IMHO!
It’s weird; everyone knows that I am on a night shift, so why oh why did the text messages all start up at about 7:30 AM from practically everyone? I wound up taking a nap after a while, and just barely made it to work on time. Of course, things are falling all to hell on Sludge (thanks to FiFeeble), and I’m sorta lonely and bummed out that I am having to do some finagling to go to LA for Junkyard (as it turns out, although I have my earned vacation days, they can not be taken until I have been with the company for 6 months. So that’s 16 hours that can’t be used until February.) *sigh* I WILL figure SOMEthing out, somehow.
]]>The FiFeeble thing has blown up to huge proportions on Sludge again. I’ll just say “OOPS!” and leave it at THAT. And in a completely unrelated note, if I don’t do laundry soon, I may have to (gulp) start wearing SKIRTS to work. No bueno!
Tonight, I was prattling along on the phone and realized, weirdly, that right now, everything in my life is going smoothly and there really is very little to say when that is happening. Right now, though, I’m wondering how difficult it would be to trudge the laptop over to the bed. I kinda miss being able to chill on the bed and having to be “up” when I’m online! (Yeah, I’m a dork, what are ya, new?)
]]>Back to work today–I swear, I HATE split days off! Still, I am VERY proud of the amount I accomplished yesterday. Sure, I’m “still pluggin’ away”, but things really are falling into place, in so very many ways. For example, I was looking at my credits, and realized that I am closer to an AA than I thought that I was, if my math is correct. Anyway, next Tuesday, I will be meeting with an academic advisor, so that will give me a huge “push” in the right direction!
Color me corny, but I named the weasel. Yeah, I slept with ZAPPA last night. Of course, BlackCat and Fuzzy ALSO climbed up in the bed with me (which meant I had to leave the door open, grrr), so it was definitely a full bed! LOL
]]>I’m pretty proud of my level of accomplishment for the day–I marked a TON of things off of my to-do list, even though I’m not 100% sure that the cable is actually CONNECTED! I also, obviously, hadn’t calculated for having to make that run to IKEA and the subsequent moving of furniture that that entailed.
When I was talking to my mom tonight, she seemed miffed that I couldn’t say, “I’m ecstatically happy” right now, but I think I’m actually better than that–right now, everything is JUST MELLOW, and when I said that to her, she replied, “Well, honestly, if you were ecstatic, I’d worry that you were going manic again.” I don’t even know if I WAS bipolar at this point. One of the things I learned during my breakdown was that a lot of the behavior that had always been attributed to bipolar in my diagnoses was also characteristic of PTSD. And there is NO doubt that I had THAT!
Still, I refuse to view myself as a victim, nor as a survivor. I said that for several months, and I am LIVING that choice now. Not just in the obvious, but also with regards to my gastric bypass. Yes, there are things that changed my life. Yes, there are things that taught me lessons. Yet I am much more than any label with which someone wants to saddle me. I reject those false judgment values, even if they are POSITIVE judgments, simply because that isn’t who *I* am, nor who I want to be. I have become, in so many ways, the woman I always pretended to be, and then some. Life really doesn’t suck.
]]>Got rather peeved at the cellphone store today, however, since I waited for nearly an HOUR at AZ Mills (which I don’t dig, anyway), waiting to get my firmware flashed. Get back to the store, where I find out it’s going to be another half an hour, when I have a doctor’s appointment in 30 minutes….HELL to the no. Wound up going to Tempe Marketplace after I finished at the doc, and now everything is groovy except for the fact that I can not yet get Visual Voice Mail to work. Bastards.
For all my concern about my bloodwork, Dr. Alcantar was very pleased with the results. Apparently I was “slightly” dehydrated that day (It was ONLY 120 degrees, FFS!) and he wants me to come back in January for a protein check, but I am neither anemic nor lacking in vitamins. Life is good! (Even though I started my period, such propitious timing, considering I had a Pap YESTERDAY! Still, at least it means I can start my pills on Sunday)
Spending was rather high today, unfortunately. $15 copay at the doc, $38 at IKEA (TV stand and a PRECIOUS stuffed weasel that I’ve wanted for over a month),$3 on diet soda at QT, $4 at Weinerschnitzel, $15 on an MP3 player, $23 on thrifting (3 leopard print throw pillows, a stack of books about country music–including one about GRAM PARSONS!!!, a pair of shorts that had never been worn, and some treats for the kids.)
I must remember, tomorrow, to schedule time off for the LA Guns gig here in Tempe! I am soooo excited!!!! AND tonight is the new episode of South Park, so I’d better get cracking on moving the TV and such. Dear Lemmy, please let hooking up the cable be easy……
]]>….yep, lots and lots and LOTS to do!
]]>Got my phone today, but I have to go up to the shop to get the software updated for visual voice mail to be provisioned on it. I’m kinda excited and can finally ship Mom’s phone to HER. Oh, AND the Motorhead shirt that was in the package fits PERFECTLY. It’s long enough that I don’t feel weird about the floppy skin at my waist, yet snug enough that you can see my ribcage. This is a good thing!
Spending today wasn’t too terribly bad: $20 at the gynecologist, $16 at the Circle K (soda, pretzels, and cigarettes), and $4 on ordering my replacement driver’s license with the new address. Speaking of addresses, I did drive by the old house tonight, just out of curiosity. I guess Kelly has finally made it down and gotten her things, as the decor on the outside of the house was gone. Funny how it doesn’t hurt as badly as I thought it would. Seeing the inside, the night RQ and I talked so long, that was kinda hard, but the outside, it didn’t even feel like the same place, which makes it easier, somehow.
]]>So yesterday was my therapy appointment, and it went well enough. Julie is genuinely pleased with the amount of progress I’ve made over the past couple of months, and she didn’t even see me at my worst, so that’s a good thing! I’m still recalibrating my body clock, which made work a little rough, but at the same time, the coaches keep telling me I’m doing a really good job, so I certainly HOPE that they aren’t just trying to make me feel better! LOL
Finally got around to ordering my replacement driver’s license. There’s still more things I need to do today, but, realistically, by the time I get home from the gynecologist, I doubt I’ll feel like doing any of them. At least tomorrow is a day off (Have I mentioned how badly I despise split days?) So, in theory, I’ll be able to get things handled…I really need to get that “check engine” light looked at, I think.
]]>I only have one day this weekend as a day off, so that throws me off of my usual rotation. I will be doing laundry on Wednesday, I’m sure, as that is the other day off that I have (I have a class that morning, and three separate doctor appointments this week, so it’s not going to be an easy go of things, no matter WHAT I do.) At least two of the doctor appointments are on work days, since I try not to plan much on those days at home.
ETA: Bathroom straightened, Best Buy called (like HELL am I paying $30 to have them put the key that is popped off back onto the keyboard. NOT happening!). 1 hour, 55 minutes to go–headed into the car now!
ETA 2: Car is cleaned out, but not unpacked. 15 minute break was taken. 1.5 hours to go! (I may tack the “lost” 30 minutes back on, to make it 6:00 even when I call it a day).
FINAL ETA: Ok, so I need to take out the trash, laundry, vacuum, process the inbox and bring in the stuff from the car….but that’s SOOOO minor, comparatively! Hell, I’m even ahead of schedule!
]]>Y’know, I’m thrilled and tickled the Fifi gig last night was comedy gold…however, due to being up all night awaiting updates on it….I overslept tonight and missed the Throw Rag gig that I’d been looking forward to for MONTHS. I STILL haven’t seen Throw Rag, and that’s just NOT RIGHT.
Then again, it means I didn’t spend any money, so I guess it’s a win. Only spent $4 today–bought breakfast and a soda on the way to work. When I got home from work, I was on the phone (unsurprising) but we were both exhausted and cranky, so the sleep was a necessary thing. Waiting now to see when I get a call back, ya know?
Work went well-ish. I was laughing, though, cuz Monique had profiled me as being a fuckin’ hippie just from overhearing me laughing about collecting rockerboys. She’s….interesting. Honestly, reminds me of a lot of the gals I knew during the days I was working with the homeschoolers.
I’ve been feeling a little clingy the last couple days, and I know it’s hormonal. I need to work on that. Clingy in a lot of ways, not just in the obvious one–I know it all ties back into the perfectionism when I get so adamant about having my own way and now I feel like a total ass for being so insistent on Michael and Dustin going to see Throw Rag when *I* didn’t even manage it. Seriously, though, I had one of those evil “no sleep migraines” that just decimates me.
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